The Fox's Secret

Have you ever had a dream that changed your life?  Or perhaps a dream that crystallized a major change that was already happening in your life?

The first time I had a dream of this kind was during my senior year of high school.  I suppose that as many people approach graduation, there is a sense that the world they know is ending and a great deal of change is to come.  My senior year caused a great deal of reflection on everything from potential college choices to career interests to religious beliefs to the meaning of life.  It was also the first year I remembering having so many personally significant dreams–dreams that literally changed (or made me question) some of my most central beliefs and the ways in which I understood my life and the world around me.  In some ways, you could say my fascination with dreams as having a greater significance than mere fantasy began here, at this point of my life.

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I really thought that I was done with dreams about The Fool after I finally confronted this character in the dream I described here.  I should have known better.  Despite an eight month hiatus (he must have been hibernating during the winter), the Trickster invaded yet another dream this past June.  It happened during my vacation.  I was staying at a Travelodge in Ft. Bragg, California in between two travel days.  The dream was so intense that I got out of bed at around 3 a.m., flipped on the lamp and wrote down every detail I could remember in my journal.  So, even though the dream is now two months old, the narrative of this dream is as fresh as they come.  (I have added some additional comments where my night time scribbling might have been hard to decipher otherwise in parentheses.)

Here is what I wrote down in the middle of the night when the Trickster returned to play yet another joke:

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Since I just shared the post-apocalyptic story I began after having a post-apocalyptic dream, I thought I would share this video that was created by my alter-ego over at YouTube.  It’s set to a really haunting “bonus track” from an AFI album.  It’s probably not the best video I ever made, but it is my favorite.  I called it “Ashes”.